What is Winning?

Image sourced from the Public Domain Image Archive / MKG Collection Online

This is something I think about a lot but not sure I have the time and energy to write about it properly.

What does success look like?

My thinking on this often comes from watching NCAA gymnastics. There are 2 main competitive levels in the U.S. – elite, which is the international level and then collegiate. There aren’t a lot of elite spots and the competition is tight. There are a lot of amazing NCAA gymnasts who excelled at the top level but couldn’t quite crack the top of the elite ranks.

Then in NCAA there are various levels and something like 80 teams. You still need to be ridiculously good at gymnastics to get on a college team but you might be 2nd in the lineup on the 22nd ranked team — do you feel like you’re a success?

Same when I was regularly watching soccer. How tough it was to get on a MLS team and then tough to make it to the starting lineup. And MLS isn’t even the best league in the world.

And then looking at acting — have you ever seen an actor who looks kind-of familiar and you check them in IMDB and you see they have 50 credits and have done 1 or 2 episodes in all kinds of shows over the years and maybe bit parts in movies — but you don’t even know their name? Then there are actors that you recognize but never get the staring role. They’re always the friend or the school principal. Do they feel successful?

I don’t know what my point is other than some bland platitude about being grateful for what we have or something. I’m always the one who says only one team can win. Only one athlete wins the gold. Only one actor wins the award. But still, the runner-ups worked really hard, too.

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The End of the Farseers

This summer I finished the final book in an epic fantasy series called Realms of the Elderlings by Robin Hobb.

(Typing this makes me think back: I wonder how often Elderlings actually appeared on page.)

Most people would refer to these books as Fitz and the Fool and they are a huge commitment and very, very much worth it.

There are 3 Fitz trilogies, plus a trilogy of liveship books and a quadrilogy of dragon books. These are in the same world with overlapping characters and story points.

I haven’t read the dragon ones yet.

These are big fat books. I listened to most of them and these were 30 hour books. The final volume was 39!

This is one of those series where often people did things you didn’t want them to do. Lots of terrible things happened. But also amazing relationships, well-developed real characters, and such vivid world building.

The story ending was satisfying in a bittersweet but perfectly wonderful way.

The real mourning is that am done. I can’t believe I’m not going to hear new stories about Fitz. I do want to read the dragon ones but it’s not a priority.

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Welcome to My Garden

I have been wanting to plant more native plants in my yard.

I should say I have been actively working on planting more native plants in my yard. (But not this bed. This bed still has a bazillion bulbs but I dug a lot during this project.)

I cleared this bed and then never dealt with finding plants. I have always wanted to plant huckleberries but I thought they wouldn’t work here. We were on a walk and there is someone on my block has 2 huckleberries and they were loaded. (Why wasn’t she picking them?!?!?!)

I had an appointment that was arguably on the way to the nursery so I drove over and wandered around in the rain. (Had the place to myself!)

I grabbed the three huckleberries they had.

On my way out I saw this: Arctic Fire!

It’s a something something dogwood with red sticks in the winter! Pretty white flowers in spring, green leaves during the year that turn during the fall. So pretty! Doesn’t it look like it’s always belonged in my yard?

I planted all these in the rain. My clothes, all my tools, my buckets: everything is muddy. I put it in the shop and I still haven’t dealt with it.

It’s been awhile since I’ve done a work in progress counter. I’m aiming for 15k in the month of November. This is a re-envisioned project of forever. This goal is for a first draft. My chatgpt helped me and it doesn’t look quite right but I don’t want to get derailed trying to fix it right now.


46% Complete — 41,062 / 90,000 words
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Store Pumpkin and the Sad Tale of the Squash Bugs

A tiny corner of our local giant Halloween house.

I am actually writing this on Halloween night. We have had maybe 30 kids and it is raining.

I think I have shared that the garden pumpkin situation is bad. Last year I learned I had something called squash bugs. I didn’t get a single pumpkin.

This year since I had the brand new raised beds with only dirt from the landscaping place I thought I was okay. I was not.

And squash bugs are creepy. There are tons of them. I tried to manage them by picking them (scraping them by the handful) and tossing into a bucket of sudsy water and it was so icky.

Image sourced from the Public Domain Image Archive / Yale University Art Gallery

I bought an eating pumpkin from the grocery store. I want to say it was a sugar pumpkin but I’m not positive.

I cooked it the way I cook all my pumpkins and I made pumpkin soup.

It was not delicious.

Since then, I bought a red kuri and a blue kuri and a cinderella pumpkin and I’m going to process those for pies and soup (and hope they taste better!). We also eat a lot of pumpkin chili although it’s mostly because in the past I grew so many pumpkins we had tons in the freezer.

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Another Manic Sunday

Image sourced from the Public Domain Image Archive / Rijksmuseum

In my heart I think I am going to do a post a day in November but the reality is that I can barely do a post a week right now. I was up early this morning and tried to complete one little computer project which, of course, had a problem and 1.5 hours later I still haven’t solved it and now I’m frustrated and frazzled and I have to hurry now and move to the next thing.

I don’t want to elaborate but there are extra responsibilities going on right now and I just can’t get on top of things.

At some point earlier in the summer I decided I wanted to try planting garlic. I think it was a combination of people talking about the garlic they grew and I probably saw an article. I did the research and bought Early Red Italian and Inchelium Red. Fortunately, I knew it was on the way and I prepped the bed where I planned to put it.

It arrived on Thursday and we were forecast to get about 10 feet of rain over several days and most days in the forecast were rain.

Meanwhile, I have another yard project going and my results have been super embarrassing and by looking in my archive I guess I never wrote about it before. I’m trying to convert my lawn into other plants but it’s slow going because I have a job and my aging body is like a shriveled piece of jerky that shrieks at too much outdoor labor and the season ends about the time I get around to it. I did a quick half-assed hour on that and then rushed to get some garlic in before it was too dark.

Then Friday morning I ran out and finished planting it. So I got that done. I hope the results are rewarding. I also did an afternoon planting but I will save that story for later.

In other news, last week I saw my first Christmas ad. Let’s mark it as October 22. Insert sad face. And I have received 2 emails from the same organization already begging me for my end of the year donation.

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Grain Expectations

I can’t find a post about it but I tore the carpet out of the second bedroom around 2006. I guess I should start by saying that upon moving into our house, I did not like the carpet. But we are not home improvement people and I imagined there would come a day when we would do all the floors.

Except to do all the floors you basically have to move out of your house and there is no scenario for that happening.

Last year we pulled up the carpet in the bedroom when we got the new bed.

I decided I wanted to rip out the last of the carpet covering the hardwood floor and some wonderful handymen did that for us over the weekend. The rest of the house was added on or didn’t have hardwood. Can you believe this stuff was covered up?

On Sunday I went over the whole thing with the vacuum and picked up all the grit and dust in the corners. I pulled out any remaining staples and then I washed it down with Murphy’s Oil Soap. Pretty nice, huh?

Now I think we can move everything onto the hardwood and replace the rest of the floor. I don’t know. I would love to do a remodel project but not sure we have the money or the capacity to deal with something like that.

Definitely not worrying about it now.

Check out this jacked skunk. Doesn’t it seem huge? But with a tiny head? Do all skunks look like that? It seems really giant to me. I’m not sure where it lives. I wish I knew just to avoid inadvertently running into it.

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There is No News

I haven’t been as on top of my trailcam as I used to be. Partly because of the raised beds there isn’t as good of a view of the whole yard. I suppose I could figure another spot to put the camera but then it becomes a project and I haven’t been able to deal with projects lately.

Also partly because I don’t really use an app anymore this is the only place to post the videos.

Here we go and as long as I have been doing this I still have to think every time how to spell raccoon and opossum. The cam is mostly raccoons. I saw one of my neighbors complaining about having five living in the backyard so I’m guessing it’s this crew. I’ve spotted the skunk recently, too. It doesn’t look like there’s anything living under the shed right now but I haven’t looked too closely and the weather has changed.

Like every year, October is busy. I am normally in Orleans this week but [for reasons] I am not. There is a lot going on and the thought of being out of town for over a week is overwhelming.

I wish I had a great story to tell but my mind is blank at the moment.

I ordered a ton of garlic to plant because I’ve never planted it before and now I have no idea where I’m going to put it. I haven’t had time to prep anything.

I’ve had a long weekend and it seems like all I’ve done is chores and errands and the same planned for today.

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The Cuc that Got Away

If you ever wondered what happens when a cucumber gets lost in the vines, here’s a great example. See that big orange thing?

When I was in Atlanta, Bob was in charge of the garden and the yard is not his thing. He freely admits he hates yard work. “It’s boring,” he says.

He did find some of the cucumbers but they do hide and this one got away and is now happily composting elsewhere.

I haven’t been able to spend as much time in the yard as I’d like and the weather will be leaving me soon. I have a bed I want to yank all the stuff I have and put in native plants and not sure I’m going to make it in time. Maybe next weekend.

I am still getting the orange-ish ever-bearing raspberries. That’s about it. I’m going to pick the last of the apples and make a little pot of applesauce for us to eat this week.

The trailcam is alive and well. No brilliant clips lately. Lots of raccoons scampering around the bucket of water. I caught Skunky running through the other night. The opossum is a regular. Lots of cat clips. I haven’t seen bunny in a while but I’m sure he’s out there.

I bought one of those consumer “wellness” glucose monitors to see what’s going on with me since my previous doctor made me scared about my blood sugar being in the pre-diabetes range. I am just barely into that range and it coincides with me becoming a crone. It’s been stable since then and I only have a few days worth of data but I think I’m pretty normal for my age. As long as I pay attention to protein and get regular activity, I don’t think diabetes is going to kill me.

I’m trying a new fitness app. I like workout circuits even though I do the easiest iterations. I could probably make money filming myself doing these because I am so uncoordinated and it helps me if I talk through it. So I’ll be grunting and huffing and puffing and then: reach! reach! punch! punch! tap! tap! left! right!

I think it’s fun but it reminds of when I used to take step-aerobic classes taught by my cousin Jennifer. She was a really good teacher but as she built to longer sequences, I was hopeless. Is step aerobics even a thing anymore? It probably is but has a new name like the kids today invented it.

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Middle Seat

Last weekend I was in Atlanta to visit with friends. I didn’t take many photos and our “adventures” mostly involved eating and wandering around and talking. We did spend a couple of nights in Covington where a number of movies and TV shows have been filmed including The Vampire Diaries. But no big tales to tell.

The dog above is the adorable monster Arky (Archimedes) who will begrudgingly take treats from me but mostly just barks.

It cracks me up that pine needles are used for mulch in Georgia. We rake and rake and rake and rake pine needles at our place in Orleans and then burn them.

On the way to ATL I had the middle seat.

I’m a small person and I can easily fit in an airline seat but the arm rest. I don’t even need the arm rest but inevitably the person(s) next to me not only need the arm rest but they need more than the arm rest which means they are in the space that I paid for. On this trip the window seat person, at one point, leaned against the window so that their back was bumping into me. Also, they kept the window shade down the entire time!

Last year I did this same flight and the view was amazing.

On my other side there was a lady smaller than I am who was cold. I hear you, lady. I am always cold on a plane. I always have a sweater and often bring fuzzy socks because I am always cold on a plane. We had to check the fan above the seat. And then check it again. And then check it again. “I’m cold,” she kept telling me.

I’m not sure what I was supposed to do about it.

From the Public Domain Ragnarok: The Age of Fire and Gravel (1883)

Speaking of incredible views, on the way home we flew at night and I got the window seat.

There were several lightning storms along the way but at one point, it was like there was two levels of clouds and the lightning was in between — lighting up these incredible cloud structures. It was other worldly. I had a show on my screen but I barely watched because the show outside the plane was so incredible. It wasn’t scary. It was a medium bumpy flight but during the lightning everything felt stable. I’ve never seen anything like that before. I wanted to ask the pilots about it but did not get the opportunity.

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Babies!

This one time I caught an opossum with a back full of babies. I can’t remember if I ever posted the clip. I always hoped to catch them again.

According to the search engine AI – opossums have the shortest gestation period of any N American mammal lasting 11-13 days. Then they are about the size of a bumblebee and have to crawl to the pouch. Seems like a lot to ask. If they make it they live in the pouch for 2 months. After that they cling to Mom’s back for another month or so.

It says a litter can be 4-25 joeys. YIKES. But there are only 13 nipples so for most of them: sorry, bub. Generally only 1 in 10 makes it to reproductive age. That explains why we aren’t living in a world of opossum packs.

Last month I caught these pretty big guys on camera again but only for a few seconds and to close to the camera so it’s not a great shot but still exciting. I kept hoping to catch them again but they look big enough to walk by themselves. I’m sure Mom kicked them off right after this pic.

If all goes as planned I am out of town and hopefully have a relaxing weekend. More when I return.

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